A moment

What is the deal? What is it for real? 6 years go by ... in touch ... not a sight ... not a touch nor kiss ... but always a dream. A fantasy? A connection? A mystery attraction unexplored, unexplained. Strong. Always there just beneath the surface. Something that never seems to fade. Pushed aside for reality, never chased for fears ... many things there are. Always another life away yet somehow strangely close to the soul. Mysterious it lingers, drawn to you. In us something always there ... touching ... deep. Pictures in two minds on occasions textually shared. What is it about you? What is it about me? A day will draw closer to where 2 people, once again face to face. Two alone in the night. Only a moment so short. Clock ticks loud ... a reminder of just how short. Heart beating. Anticipation that builds ... think not of realities. What is wrong is somehow so right, suddenly unstoppable. The secret fight, deep, personal. Pushed aside, not so far away. A devil? An Angel? A never ending spontaneous surprise. Two untouchable and yearning for touch. Secret pictures, dreams, sensual, surreal and taboo. Just what is it about me and you? A Pandoras box daring to be opened. How can nothing be felt so strongly? Nothing? It cant be that when theres so much more felt. Always so close. Always so far. Melting inside ... feeling but rarely daring to speak the words that echo in the distance of ones? mind. So strong, so unexplained, so rare, so special and yet so invisible. Like a warm breeze in the cold, the suns first warm rays of light stroking you ... slowly, magically filling you inside. Fire like warmth. Like hanging off the edge comfortably knowing you can never fall. The line in between. Hidden love? Hidden lust? What in the universe drives us here? A fantasy becoming reality? Ignorant of other realities that remain. A day will draw closer with so many unspoken words, so many wonders and continually seeking the silence in feeling for words underestimate. The fear. The excitement. Pictures you help paint. Wanting. Needing. Not always wanting to seek understanding. Rational? Rarely dare to speak out loud. Just savour a moment? A dream? A reality? Almost there? Almost real? Still so rare. Dreams meeting reality? Fully? In part? Incomplete? What is that underlying? The connection, so distant yet strong. Past Life? The future? The present? The forbidden fruit or something meant to be. For a moment when nothing else in the world will exist .... a short moment ... that will live forever in 2 life times. Touched yet untouchable.
Sometimes words just cant say it.


Now all I want to do is share a most beautiful song.



Some doors may be made of glass but they cant always be seen through clearly.

Keeping in touch

Well I have 11 days without my daughter. It is always a weird feeling when I drop her to the airport when she goes back to Adelaide for holidays. There is a lot of wishing I could be going too, but damn having to work and be responsible. Unfortunately time being unwell recently took my plans of going for a holiday with her this time around away and pushed them back until christmas time. In 19 days I will have been here for 12 months. So surreal when I look back on the whole journey. It has been full of mixed emotion and much learning about myself amongst many things. All in all I am proud I have made it so far. My life is far from the rut I saw it being before I made the decision to move even if it does still have its challenges.

I had fun last week trying to put new windscreen wipers on my car. First time I have personally replaced them. OH MY GOODNESS!!! What a job that turned out to be. It took 2 days and 2 sets of wipers to finally get them in. I thought originally maybe being the cheaper set of wipers maybe they werent made too well and was the cause of the difficulty but upon closer inspection who ever changed them before me has stuffed the clamps that hold them on. They were all different sizes!!! I ended up ramming the end of one of the arms into my thumb ... bloody OUCH!!!! And what timing ... just as I did that and had blood running freely the neighbour arrived home which meant I had to move my car immediately so he could get his car into his park (I was doing this all in the underground carpark). So with my thumb in immense pain and blood running down my hand I reverse my car back into my park trying to avoid blood getting on my clothes and upholstery .... with some success too. So car back in its spot I leave the windscreen wipers hanging not even half done and attend to my thumb to stop it bleeding. Its the worst possible spot too .. all week I have been bumping the tip of my thumb and breaking the skin again damn thing. I have NEVER had such problems getting blades on any car previously. So the next day I get a friend to go buy the next best pair of blades that werent the cheap ones hoping that may help .... but no I end up ruining one of them totally and go back to trying the cheaper ones. No luck I ruined one of them too, so with that I had one blade in and 3 ruined blades. In the end I had to take the blade itself out of the better set and thread it into the backing of one of the cheaper ones that I hadnt TOTALLY bent beyond repair and after what seemed like forever finally got the bastards in. I hope I dont have to change them again before Iam able to get a new car. If I do I am going to one of the rarest things ever ..... pay someone else to take care of it. I hope they have better luck than I did lol. Oh well bit of fun.

I applied for an electronics traineeship last week with Nokia. I am not sure what my chances are of getting in for an interview but hey heres fingers crossed. The email reply stated I should know in 2 weeks if I have made it through to the next recruitment process. Wish me luck ... it would be a foot in the door towards a dream come true for me.

I also had TAFE call me regarding a course, certificate 3 in I.T, that I enquired into some time back letting me know they still have positions open in their course, admittedly cert 3 in I.T doesnt REALLY take me down the path Im mostly interested in so tomorrow I plan to look into it a little more and see where they offer the electronics courses up here. I would rather more hands on with the hardware side of gadgets. I do plan to be back studying by the start of next year and pushing myself towards leaving hospitality work for good.

Well I am off for now to go wandering through cyberspace.

Stay beautiful and keep well

Laugh at our Prime Minister ... why not we do ... oh and other dribble

Damn forgot to grab a coffee .... brb


Ok back ...

So how are you all on this fine day? Well its not really fine its been fully pissing down all day here.

I am slowly running out of patience with my dinosaur of a computer. Shes around 8 years old so I guess I shouldnt be surprised at its pitiful performance.Im dreaming of the day I can justify and afford a new one.

With no work I have spent most of my day in a few of my favourite traffic exchanges and have to say 1 thing that is the ultimate gripe with a number of web pages. Audio and videos that autoplay when you get to the page. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! And rip my hair out every time. I would appreciate being able to listen to my music and having the ability to chose who I want to listen to and what video I want to see. I do not bother watching many videos on the basis that it both sucks the crap out my internet connection with the buffering time it takes for most of them to load and in turn slows EVERYTHING I am trying to do on my dinosaur computer. The processor just cannot handle video and audio in web pages while I am surfing many pages. So not only do I have to have my sound off and unable to enjoy the music on my computer in the order of how I want to listen to my songs I have to deal with my processor trying to blow out 100% usage .... especially when the page containing autoplay audio and video contain lots of flashing banner adds and other scripts loading. I do not know how many web browser crashes I have to endure due to surfing many pages at once. Ok so maybe I should chose to not surf so many at once.... but then i dont particularly have time to surf each exchange alone, after all I am usually only doing 3-4 at one time. But anyway .... Im sure my bitch aint going to change much but I sure do wish people who want audio and video in their pages would not have them set to autoplay. Sure you want my attention.. you have something to offer, thats fine... but have the respect to let ME chose what I want to see or hear. The autoplays get turned off immediately and I never look at or listen to something by someone who is not considerate enough to give other users the choice to listen/watch or not.

Ok so thats my gripe for the day lol.

On to something a bit lighter. Anyone from Oz would, or should ... if you dont then where the heck have you been hiding over the past years ..., know the show RoveLive. Im not so sure if theres muchof a following overseas. Now I have recently been suckered into watching it upon realising the need for me to learn how to relax my mind a bit. For those who are simillar to me and have a rather BROAD sense of humour I have decided to include some of the videos from the show. Now be warned ..... sometimes this show borders on being wrong on many levels. If you are one of those people who are racially, religously or politically sensitive then I suggest not hitting the play button. This is for those who can laugh at themselves as much as they can laugh at everyone else, apparently a typical Aussie trait. My favourite in his show takes the piss out our Prime Minister ... Mr Kevin Rudd, to me he so0o0o0o looks like he belongs on a can of Mr Sheen, maybe I should get photoshop and put him on one hehehe. Anyway ... you will find them in the other column just below my fave blog list if you want to laugh at our Prime Minister just like we do. Remember ... if you are easily offended then do not watch them. I will not take crap because you are offended at something I find humorous. You are entitled to and I wont knock your heightened sensitivity to things just as I am entitled to being able to laugh at the most questionable of things.

Ok well Im off to put up one of the epsiodes of Kevin Rudd P.M before I run? well ok walk but in any way Im on my way to bed in the hope work wont be cancelled on me again tomorrow .... I know the bad weather is supposed to carry on tomorrow so there may be a possibility of it .. otherwise I may just end up saturated from running in the rain just like I was Sunday lol. Oh the joy of working outdoors.

10DollarsWonder - just how Im seeing it

Well this should really be on the other blog but will put it here for now.

I was just at 10 DollarsWonder overseeing my account and making sure Ive missed no changes of rules or whatever. Anyway I began to think about it all a bit.

Now here he has not long ago introduced another "NEW" system. Buy more! Buy more! Now dont get me wrong I have no problems with him trying to stimulate things and try get more members .... active members. It takes money to make money here quite simply put. Now remember the LAST "NEW" system rules anyone? Same thing ...to get high priority positions BUY MORE!! BUY MORE!! So I did ... for every position I had.

Remember the withdrawal rules?
NONE FOR 30 DAYS AFTER LOCKING YOUR ACCOUNT IN
40% EVERY WEEK FOR 6 months, 50% AFTER THAT and so on to 100% withdrawal after 3 years. Yeah cool ... I even finally got through the initial 6 months and made 1 50 % withdrawal before the next "NEW" system was bought in. So now we have some high priority positions set to medium-low and then ALL of those along with ALL the old high priority positions cycle as well as the low priority positions now.

Ok so this may be heavily dependent and directly related to a massive drop in members purchasing in 10 Dollarswonder ... I DO understand that for positions to cycle there needs to be positions purchased by ALL members.

So now NEW purchased and AUC positions cycle well. I cannot complain about those "few" positions. What about the rest of my high priority positions??? Well Ive given up even seeing if they move, grass would grow quicker.

But the rules .... when we locked into the "NEW" new system we were back to the same old restrictions

No withdraw for 30 days (starts from Lock-in date).

You can withdraw up to 40% from your balance every week (7 days) after 30 days.

You can withdraw up to 50% from your balance every week (7 days) after 6 months.

You can withdraw up to 70% from your balance every week (7 days) after 1 year (12 months).

You can withdraw up to 80% from your balance everyday (24 hours) after 2 year.

You can withdraw up to 90% from your balance everyday after 3 year.

Pretty straight forward stuff ...... BUT what about when you take into account the following statement ....


Auto-repurchase:

If you have balance over $20, you must withdraw, repurchases or both in 10 days. Otherwise, the system will repurchase for you with 50% of your balance.

Do the math... if you can ONLY withdraw 40 % of your balance every week because the new system hasnt hit 6 months yet. You would need a considerable amount of positions cycling regularly under the "NEW" system to be able to get MORE than $20.00 within 10 days to enable you to reach the 40% you can withdraw. So then the "system" forces auto purchase with 50 % of your commissions once you are over $20.00, so unless I get in a position to put in chunks of cash to balance it all out I wont even be able to withdraw what Ive earnt before he forces me to spend half until F$# Knows when. Maybe Ive added it up wrong but at the angle Im seeing it from... well Im not seeing it as very fair at all.

I also look after an accout for a friend ... all HIGH PRIORITY from the last so-called promotion and not a single one has cycled since this "NEW" new system BS was introduced. Wont say scam ... but it is borderlining on being just a rip-off in my eyes. So called BUSINESS pfffft yeah right. Its a big fat game of chance that you get in and make something before he decides to move the goal posts again.

AND he cant STILL cant even get 10 centclub up and running. He should do whats just and right and REFUND anyone who had commissions in E2Epay instead of continuing the 10 cent club which I am feeling at this stage to be nothing but a farse to keep those who have commissions in there shut up. But hey ... he never listened when I was support so I cant see he will now. I have emailed in regards to this and of course we know the reply ... none.


Meh !!! I expect there will be another new system available soon to screw over those who have jumped, conformed and parted with cash to line his pockets already. I am NOT saying it is a scam ... it is NOT. Just a VERY hard system and he just makes it harder all the time to see it as a worthwhile program to be participating in.

just my views and experience. If you can see Ive misunderstood something please feel free to point it out.

Just Silly

When I moved from my place in Adelaide I had a foxtel connection I was in the middle of a contract with. To not face massive charges for something I didnt have we came to an agreement that I would pay a $5 a month suspension fee. I held onto the foxtel IQ (which we have a lot recorded - mostly my daughters stuff tho) and multiroom boxes. All good.

To date due to financial and unstable living arrangements I have not yet felt I am in the position re-connect it but had been thinking about soon maybe since I am getting me feet on the ground finally. Anyway I had a call from them a couple of days ago. My contract has ended so I do have the choice to just return their equipment and be done with it. Although when I say my choice she is making a point to be making my decision then and there because they cannot "suspend my service any longer"

Cool, but I do admit I kind of enjoyed some of the freedoms foxtel with IQ when I had it to be able to watch what I wanted when I wanted to. I do not watch a lot of tv so miss a lot of shows I may enjoy watching if I had the time and energy to watch them religously. I ask what my other options are.

"Oh we have a great deal where you can get IQ free for a year. All we do is come pick up your old box and give you a new one and your away with whatever package you chose. Are you happy with that?"
Hmmm ... yes and no ... interested in hearing more I think but I state my reservation ... "yeah cool, but I dont need a new box as I already have the IQ box with stuff we have already recorded so can I just keep the same box."
"well the deal is only available to new customers so no you cannot keep your exiting box you would need to hand it in and get a new one."
Not happy, I have already paid for what I have on there as far as Im concerned and point this out. Telling her "I dont like that" she cuts me off referring to handing the boxes back and totally cancelling. "I said I wasnt happy with the deal of losing the box I didnt say I wanted to cancel. Can you tell me invlolved in just connecting the existing box as I already have it." This has not been connected for close to 12 months now so its not REALLY a transfer of connection in my mind. Maybe its just me but to transfer a connection something needs to be connected right? They have had every recent address since I moved so they dont even have to enter a change of address. "oh the transfer of your existing account will cost you $100 and you cant get the IQ free for a year deal, you would have to cancel your account and open a new one for that so what do you want to do cancel?"

OMG!!! Does this woman want to help a customer stay with the company or does she want me to bloody cancel?!?! I mean really!!! She keeps bringing it up, Im just asking my options. In the end I tell her that I cannot make such a financial decision on the spot and would need at least 48 hours to think it through, mainly because I was getting annoyed with the way she was A? wanting me to make a decision on the spot and B) she kept referring to cancelling when I just want to know what my full options are.

If she asks me if Im happy or not (like she did) with what she has to offer then yes of course Im not going to be sheepish and say yes if Im not, I dont blame her personally and wont treat her with disrespect doing a job relaying the STUPID rules some of these companies make . Of course Im going to point out the ridiculousness of having to get a piece of equipment replaced for no reason and even more ridiculous they want to charge me $100 to transfer something that, well, is really no more than the new connection they would give me for free "if I swap boxes". No change of details, no new equipment but they will charge me $100 to do less than whats involved in the other option of creating a so called "new account". Not to mention my point being the fact I agreed to keep the account suspended and held on to the boxes so that I did not lose the content already recorded to it when I chose to re-connect it most importantly. They didnt charge me anything to transfer the connection between my old place to my friends place in adelaide where I was staying which makes me feel even more that this is just ridiculous really.

It would cost them more time and energy if I chose to cancel the account and start a new one ... so Im classed as a "NEW customer" an get everything free anyway. So after all this babble of what have I decided? Im going to be a pain in the ass, which I hate doing but I also hate these big companies stupid rules even more sometimes. Im expecting them to call today since they called Thursday. I will get to the top of the foxtel food chain, someone who DOESNT want to lose a customer, and give them THEIR options to retain a customer. Simple ... now I dont care about whether I get IQ free but they either waive the $100 transfer fee they want to charge me for doing basically nothing OR they can lose a customer outright. Its up to them how much they want to make or lose out of me, I certainly wont be deciding to spend more than I have to.

In all it just seems like ridiculous logic to not waive the $100 transfer fee in order to make thousands more, mainly considering that they wouldnt charge any of it if I took their new deal and create a so-called "new account". What idiots are in charge of logic behind company rules? Obviously no-one as usual.

Anyway so thats my bitch for the day lol...

Here is something funny I saw on the news. Many of you may have already seen it but I just couldnt resist putting it up here. An answer to an age old question Why did the chicken cross the road? Well this chook has it pretty sweet on the other side dont you think?

Chicken Crosses the Road ... for Doughnuts @ Yahoo!7 Video

Its gotta be a Homer chicken ..... (droooling) hmmmmmm brk brk brk! donuts!


Have great day. Im off to do a few things.

xox-Missi-xox

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

I will make this short. Sorry for the "all over the shop" appearance of things here at the moment. You will also notice some things have gone missing. Some of it temporarily while I am re-designing everything to the way I want it other stuff will be moved to my new blog.

I decided to add a twitter widget to leave short messages in between posts. I think its as cool as it is lame really. Hope someone somewhere gets a kick out of it. Im quite new to the whole Twitter Twittomenon. Whether I stick with it will be seen in time I guess.

I hope you like my design so far and decided to leave you with a most appropriate song song to enjoy the rather (temporarily) messed up state of my page, go have tea and see if I cant tidy the code up to align everything before I go to bed.

Who doesnt love a bit of Bowie classic





Keep well beautiful people

xox-Missi-xox

A few new things

Hey beautiful people. How are you all today? Its mid-evening right now in Ozzie Land and rather bloody cold for the first time since Ive been here. Although, knowing what temperatures some of you endure I really have nothing to complain about. Im just a big wuss when it comes to the cold. If theres one thing I hate its being cold one bit. The cold rates up there with spiders as far as things I really could do without in my world and they both make me shudder.

Whats new? Well a few things. Firstly I have been working on My Mission Money. I had started it once but have restarted it again from scratch. I will now start working towards accumulating all I have learnt about making money online and whats working or not for me over there. I have a view to soon redesigning Obscure Labyrinth again and remove many of the advertising links soon, keep business and play separate so to speak. I know my regular friends who visit here are either already a part of the programs I have listed so far on the new site or just plain not interested in making money online and thats all good but if you could at least check it out and let me know what you think it would be greatly appreciated feedback. Intro to the new Mission Money project. Lets see if I can keep this train on its rails hehehe.

I had recently formatted my pc, so had to back everything up. As a result I have happened across many things that I have signed up to and forgotten about over time.

This one I stumbled across in the pile is not essentially a money making opportunity/business but you can make money from referrals and think it could be handy tool for some.

If you could use 6 gigs of free file storage space to put pictures, videos, e-books, documents or whatever that you want to either access anywhere or share with others, then this could be a handy one for you.
They also have a feature to help you set up the ability to sell your own legal original files to give some that could use this service an extra avenue to increase their earnings potential.
You can get unlimited storage from $5. Ok so what am I babbling about already? Orbit Files is the site. I used it some time ago to share some files I had with a friend in another state. It is quick, easy and simple to use. Anyway if online storage space, file sharing sounds like something you could use or your just plain curious then check it out

Another program that caught my interest today is Linkbucks. I am still checking it out and seeing how it all works. I have a post on Mission Money about it if you are interested in knowing more. Any feedback from anyone in the know about this one would be very handy to have.

Well it is getting late here and I want to get a few more things done so stay well, chat soon.

Mmmmmmwahs!

xox-Missi-xox