Dream Your Dream and Live Some

As I do ... I greet the morning with a coffee and my computer. They have become my first 2 steps of the day (as long as Im awake before the alarm which is the normal unless I pull n all nighter). Check emails and the latest obsession Evony ... build troops, defenses, buildings, getting bigger and stronger quietly learning more about the game play. I like the early mornings at the moment ... its the one time that I feel like I can relax at home. My girl gets up and ready for school, have a chat as she does. Im so proud of her lately, there has been a definite positive growth in her that has given her a bit more of a glow about her. Everything feels like it should ... far from te reality of the rest of most days - thats a different story I wont share here. Apart from that the other part I love about mornings is listening to my music with no other disturbance. Anyone who knows me well knows that theres something wrong if I dont have the music on somewhere in the background at home, in the car and anywhere else I can get away with it. Im not obsessed by bands or who does what and choose what suits my mood at the time.

So here I sit grooving away in my seat to one of my favourite playlists and got to thinking about dreams. Uh-oh ... yes here I go thinking out loud again .. run now if you can do without insanity for today :-P. All sorts of dreams ... from those you have at night, to what if it were a perfect world, for my girl, past dreams. Do even you dare to dream? Do you dream big? Are your dreams simple? Do you follow any dreams? Do you hold on to your dreams? Or do you get stuck in reality far too much to allow your mind to wander that far?

As you may gather I allow my mind to wander ... I let it go far, I let it create unrealistic figures and ponder impossible ideas. Thats why I love music so much ... some of you escape in books, drugs, alcohol, tv, video games, work whatever it is we all have an escape. Mine is music. Thats where I got to thinking about my perfect life. What is my vision of MY perfect life. To start I would have an awesome voice lol. I would be a singer and dancer. I would perform in a large group of amazing performers putting on awe inspiring shows. Dont get me wrong ... its not a fame seeker thing, I just think performing and being able to sing and dance would be the most awesome life to have. I was part of a small amateur dance group once and is a collection of the best times Ive had. That was just dancing ... I wont delude you or myself to thinking I have any singing ability lol. So I would be Miss Missi singer and dancer extraordinaire! My perfect man would be pretty simple.. and no I dont mean stupid! Just uncomplicated and honest. He would have a huge sense of humour, love to laugh ... and of course enjoy dancing at least somewhat. He would not watch football "every" weekend, he would not be glued to a tv every spare moment, he would enjoy going out in crowds, he would have to enjoy a wide variety of music. Work? well in my dream as long as he didnt want to be a slob and enjoyed work that would be fine by me. He would be a gentleman but not a sucker. Attractive ... to me of course ... but men dont earn attractive often until after they speak ... well often they speak and dont even rate that highly to be honest but we are talking dreams here. He would have a clean style, not rough, not tough, no barbarian. The perfect marriage would be to elope to a beautiful secluded paradise of sorts, no one else. We would enjoy doing everything and nothing together. Of course there would be perfect kids and the perfect house ... nothing austentatious - I dont want to have a high maintenance dream lol, but we would never have to struggle too hard. Sure not much of it realistically achievable in this life but hey ... it never hurts to dream big regardless of reality.

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Realistic dreams Ive achieved.

Moving to Queensland. Ive had this dream since I was 16 ... always said ... "one day". Meny people along the way said "yeah-yeah" like they didnt believe it ... right up until I handed the keys to my home there lol. Admittedly in my dream I wasnt sure if I could make it happen, but I held on and mixed a bit of focus and work in making it real. Here I am. I dreamed, I held onto it for so many years and now the dream is reality.

Not turning out to be like my family. As a child and probably up until my mid 20's ... all I ever dreamed of was to be normal. To not be looked at like a product of the bad environment my mum dragged me through, to not be looked upon with pity or shunned for being from "the wrong side of the tracks". So many times spent telling myself this isnt my life and it isnt the way things are meant to be not even knowing how it was supposed to be or how to fix it. Again I held on, and that one was probably the hardest. So many times falling and getting back up on a different track to see which way will lead me to feeling like I am not a walking advertisement for stereotypical outcomes and crying "oh its my parents fault". Here I am though, without talking to me about certain subjects would anyone know I didnt complete more than year 8 at high school, lived on the streets from 15-17 years and come from a highly volatile evironment. The dream is now real ... I can talk to you if your from the streets and earn respect from millionaires and none of them see what I used to be and dreaded people seeing.

To raise my girl without seeing what I saw growing up. The harsher realities of life. Ok so I have cotton balled her in a few areas .. but I dreamed for my child to have everything I didnt. Dont we all though :-). I dreamed that she would know her dad, unlike me. I dreamed that she would have a normal family. I dreamed that she would not witness me drunk, drugged, battered or broken in an environment full of arguments. Ok so I didnt acheive the "typical" normal family .. her dad and I didnt last past her being 6 months, but we are great mates and although we dont live together she is definitely daddy's girl. Although I dont have extended family about his side include us as one of their own too and she is close to them all. She barely even sees alcohol in the place and never witnessed anything remotely like i did growing up. Pretty much dream acheived, she is almost sweet 16 and well unless something big happens she will even be the almost unheard of these days "and never been kissed". She lives at home, doesnt roam streets at night, has never been drunk and wants to get a job soon and complete year 12. I wasnt game to dream of acheiving all this ... and I do owe credit to amazing people who have touched my life that have supported us all the way, especially the few who saw the terrible mess of a human I started out as that wouldnt have taken much to crush into oblivion hehe.

There are many more things I dream and dreams that I have lived. Point to all this people? I actually have one today :-P .... Dare to let yourself dream, dare to live your dreams, dare to reach out, step outside your box, take steps doing what you think is impossible from time to time. How will you grow into something other than a product of society if you dont dare to take hold of the images in your mind and at least try to make some of them happen. No matter how far at the bottom of the pack you think you are .. its never too late .. even if you only acheive a few of your dreams it will make a positive difference to your life. Ok I will never be the singer and dancer I dream of in my mind .... but hey in my mind, in my living room, listeing to my music I still dream the audience I stand in front of and sing and dance to them anyway. Even the unrealistic dreams give you joy to revel in if you let them.


Have a great day and dream big gorgeous people ... Continued Here